Breakthrough

Little Fox has been quite religious throughout his life. When he was young, his parents sent him to weekly Buddhist classes every sunday morning. From there he knew that there was more to life than material things, so he didint take care of his body (which is now still flabby and weak). He read a lot of Buddhist books and attended many a Buddhist camps. these were the things that help kept him from going insane or becoming a psychopath at times. It also tamed his maddening feelings, but did little to control his lust.

Even with Buddhist camps, he enjoyed them throughly but it was always not enough. He always felt something was missing. He finally found it when his dad directed him to a Spiritual Organization.

Here, everyone welcomed him and he knew that the Buddhist teacher was not a fake wannabe. He was strict yet gentle at the same time. He did not compromise the teachings for the sake of more followers or to be more popular. He was already charismatic and funny, but none of the original content was toned down or distorted. Little Fox knew this is where he should be, and was very impressed with the Spiritual Guide (SG)'s teachings. Little Fox started to apply the teachings and found his life progressing in a very good way. He made up with a few friends, notably the longtime friend who went to college with him, S. Life with his family has also improved to a certain extent. But Little Fox knew he had to do more to mend the hole in his heart. He was quite certain that the SG can help him mend it.

SG gave him an opportunity to work in the Organization and gave him lots of trust and love. He was able to carry out some of the instructions but not all of them. There were misunderstandings as well but they were quickly resolved. However, other students had other plans in mind. They did not like Little Fox who was dressed in shabby clothes due to lack of money and detested him a lot. When SG invited Litte Fox to work and live with the community, Little Fox did just that, leaving his parents feeling sad (and not knowing that he did at that time.) At first Little Fox felt that it was quite okay as he was able to carry his duties without much interference but as time passed and SG showed more preference to Little Fox, other students started coming up with schemes. They complained to the SG that Little Fox did not do his work and that it was not satisfactory and isolated Little Fox at work. In time depression bit Little Fox in the ass and he could not function properly. Eventually Little Fox could not do the intended work and these students framed Little Fox for stealing money and fired him at these grounds. There was also a huge inquisition that happened where Little Fox was put in a position where he was not allowed to defend himself. He was also accused of bad mouthing and creating schism in the organization. The worst accusation was that Little Fox was accused by his house mates that he brought men home to their rented house, which never happened but they accused anyway because they felt like pressing someone down. These students then told Little Fox's parents that he was gay and then placed Little Fox under one of the less popular studenst who worked as an odd laborer and Little Fox had to follow him everywhere, and even stay at his stinky, messy house! It was one of the worst nightmares of Little Fox's life. He was mistreated, slapped and scolded many times and pressed down as well. However, Little Fox knew this was mental training but he could not take it and ran away a few times. But each and every time his parents which was brainwashed by the man would push him back. In the end, Little Fox decided to commit suicide by swallowing 50 asprin pills, had his stomach pumped and was warded overnight. Even then, his parents who were extremely shocked and saddened pushed him back.

Eventually, Little Fox ran away to S's house and stayed there for a day which made his parents and the man panic. They finally got the message that he was not to be pushed around. From then on, Little Fox returned to his family and they gave him a new level of freedom and respect. However Little Fox's dad cut off the internet line and he had to reapply his own, due to fears that Little Fox would seek out men online.

After the incident, Little Fox grew up. The hole in his heart is still there, but he could see now that his parents loved him and supported him all the way even through the difficult times. Previously he was unable to talk to people but now he could talk to people, especially strangers and is liking it. He became more confident and his unfeeling heart could feel a little again. Finally Little Fox felt normal in his life for once. He got a job soon after that to continue to learn more about what being human is like......

However, he would