jeudi 31 mars 2011

kumachan and grindr

kumachan was showing off that his phone can function as a wifi access point and told fox to connect:

fox: okay lemme see how much bandwidth my friend finding app takes. *opens iphone*
kumachan: what friend finding app? see?
*fox opens grindr* fox: this
*grindr opens and also shows alot of topless guys O_O"
kumachan: why all guys? where are the girls? girls!!
fox: er, because the girls havent registered yet?
kumachan: sure alot of creepy desperados wan once you put girl picture
fox: er..yah maybe :P

And you know, he's actually right about the creepy desperados part. nyahahhaa

I'm still kind of amused that he is really, really that blur. Despite the very obvious part that its for gay guys, he still thinks its for finding girls.

35, single and clueless. Nothing can seriously be more adorable :P

One of the things that makes the fox's job in the office a bit more bearable sometimes hehe

mardi 29 mars 2011

If superheroes were gay

Nothing can be as gay as this comic...not even if all the gay bloggers went to the same party....

lundi 28 mars 2011


Here's a lil fanfic from me that i just thought of:


"where are we heading to?"

I asked Remy, my boyfriend of 5 years, while prodding his ribs.

"oh well you'll know" He said, nonchalantly.

It was our 5th anniversary together. He said he wanted to take me somewhere special to celebrate. I even took a day off from my precious annual leaves for this.

The car went past many buildings, before it finally came to a stop at a shoplot in a sprawling urban area.

"we're here babe, get off the car"

And i did.

He went ahead of me and he was greeted by a few rough-looking men. They were chinese. Quite well built. I did not have a good feeling in my gut about this, but i told myself to trust Remy. However, Remy's been looking listless since this morning.

The few rough looking men turned around to look at me. They had a creepy smile. Remy turned around and signalled me to come over.

"go in. past that door" he said, gesturing to a door framed by a dirty-looking alley.

I went in. My guts told me to run, but my heart told me to do this for Remy. Perhaps it was something special...

As soon as i entered, the 3 rough looking men and Remy entered. Remy had tears in his eyes. the 3 men approached me. I panicked.

"Remy, whats going on?! why what?"
"I'm sorry baby" he apologized between sobs.

1 man grabbed my arms. The other my legs. As the third man started to pull down my pants. My shirt was undone and i was naked.

"what is the meaning of're supposed to protect me!!" I shouted in disbelief.
"Baby...i hate to do this..i dont have a choice....its the only way i could get out of debt"

My mind went into a state of shock, then betrayal. Remy was a well-to-do businessman, running a consultant agency. He would always be decked in LVs and Hermes items. His bag would at least have to be Dior. He'd make sure i'd be in at least a CK tee, especially when we go out. The word debt..never crossed my mind...

my genitals were now exposed to the 3rd man. I felt so vunerable and humiliated. He fingered my tight butt.

"Tight! he is indeed exotic meat!!" he exclaimed to his friends
"its about time we have a taste of dainty swans!"

I could guess what was about to happen. Remy sat in the corner, covering his face. with tears flowing down his eyes. I struggled to break free but the men held me down firmly. I shouted and screamed.

the 3rd guy undid his pants to reveal a huge, hard cock with a huge head. I had never bottomed before as it was very tight below. Remy was always the bottom. he played a bit with my cock. It got hard because i was very shocked. My world was crumbling and i will be violated against my will....

"haha see he likes this! he's so hard now!"


a tight slap landed across my face. it hurted. I just did not want to resist was the most painful form of betrayal anyone could ever face went numb.

"shut the fuck up. who asked him to owe us money. Blame him for this!"

The 3rd guy entered me hard and roughly. The pain was incredible. I felt a burn running up my anus, scraping my insides. I let out a scream of pain. I lost my sense of control and just screamed. As he entered me i lost all energy to the pain....and other two guys started to undo their pants and took turns placing their penises into my gaping mouth, stifling the scream.

I could feel intense pain, the pain of my nether regions being violated with every thrust. And my throat was gagging with the huge cocks. I choked. the pain. of both the betrayal and the rape numbed my mind. I just didint resist anymore and allowed them to do whatever they please. This body isnt mine. nobody wants me anyway.

I just didint know what to do anymore. i felt like a dead body. It was all dark. Good. I did not feel anything anymore.

As i hear Remy's sobbing being faded away by the laughter and taunts of my rapists...i knew i was the forsaken...denied by God for being gay...i am nothing but a shameless whore, a piece of rag, to be used by others this way. I dont deserve to be with Him....

dimanche 27 mars 2011

5 things to not do when knowing someone from a gay dating site

If you're new to fridae/axcest/grindr here are a couple of things you shouldnt do, especially on the first few initial messages:

1) Ask for pictures, even when there is already one on the profile.
Pictures in profiles are actually for courtesy purposes. It gives you an idea of how the guy looks like. Dont demand for more pictures when it's the first few messages. It's very disrespectful and it shows how shallow and stupid you are to care about the looks more than the personality. Especially when you ask for topless/naked pictures. Unless you're choosing someone for a free sex session, which is better and more professionally performed when paid.

2) Ask for/give out phone numbers.
Dont demand for the phone number of the other guy on the 2nd or third message exchange. It's rude and it shows how cheap you are. It also makes the other guy think you are some kind of stalker. Also, be prepared to get calls in the morning from the other guy if you pass him your number without checking him out first. Or even worse, Lady Gaga's paparazzi theme song playing on the other end while you see a shadow outside the window, with the phone and a radio.

3) Ask questions incessantly.
Okay, please dont and never ask questions one after another. It is better to start the conversation by asking about something regarding the guy's profile, except for are you t or b?. Also if they dont respond, dont send another question as that can be annoying as hell. And especially, dont go "u there? hello? can respond?" within the next 5 minutes. Dont start asking things like what do you like to do in bed, how long is your dick, how many exes you have and what is your mother's maiden name. It just shows lack of grey matter. If you want to, do it in a more eloquent way like "My dick is 7", how long is yours? i wonder what is the average size..." If the guy dosent reply after the 2nd or 3rd message, it means he is not interested and you should move on. Dont keep messaging him. You're creeping him out.

4) Start the first few messages with one liners, or worse, one word.
Please dont message people with "hi", "hi hi," "wat u doing" "what u looking for" "fun?" or shit like that, unless you are really looking for a hookup and you dont care what that guy thinks of you. Again, the reply could be "hi" and then "hi" again, being in a neverending loop. Instead, start with "i found your profile erotic/interesting/what i am looking for so yes can we be friends/lovers/sex partners?" At least, you'd look more intelligent and sophisticated that way.

5) Beg for meetups.
One of the worst things to do is to beg the other guy to meet up with you after the first few message exchanges. Dont keep going incessantly on and on to meet up with someone. Always chat first, then phone, before the meetup to avoid disappointments. Also it is disrespectful to other people's schedule and time. And it is also very stalkerish in nature. Next thing you know you'll be googling his address and getting the cloroform...

disclaimer: I'm talking about this because its some of the few mistakes i have made and ive decided to share it. And yes its just my opinion so if you dont like it leave a comment or just dont read it. Unread the words by sticking your pretty lil head onto the monitor. If you like it, leave a comment and keep reading :p

mardi 22 mars 2011

Foxxxy Facts: Muscles? What?

Doing it with him is just as good as doing it with any lean/toned guy

Hey guys! It's time for another episode of foxxxy's facts! These are facts that the fox has written for your pleasure and knowledge.

Muscles are fun to look at and fantasize about when you dont have them. But its not really fun when you get to see them upclose.

After 1.5 years of going to the gym, and seeing my share of muscular doods topless in the lockeroom (and that is A LOT of them), i can safely say that all the nice plump muscles you see on glossy magazines and pictures arent as attractive as we think they may be. It's fun and erotic at first when you see so many muscled men strip and you admire their muscles, but after a while it starts getting normal especially when you realize you can be like that too.

Many lean guys and toned with 6pax also looked like as if they would belong on the same rack as a waxed duck: dried, bony and weak. Add bad skin complexion to the mix and you'd realize being lean and toned is not as nice and sexy as it is supposed to be or look. They're bony and they just look plain weird from the wrong angles. Its like seeing a skeleton wrapped with skin becaise you can make out the shape of the bones and veins and all...ew. Anatomy class anyone? There's no muscled guy with an even complexion.

Muscled guys however look more...healthy and appealing as their muscles are often wrapped with fats. I have nothing against fat in the right amount -- to cloak the bones and veins but when they're not in season and they're fat, they turn to bears...if you're ok with that fine. But again, dont expect good skintone as they often take protein which is bad for the skin. And the BO would be amazing. That soury smell from the excess meat and protein...

Muscled guys tend to be hard all its like bone when you feel them. Its not pleasurable nor warm. Muscles are hard and they do feel like when you're stroking his big chest you cant feel much but the hard muscles...not the warm flesh. Its like having sex with the statue of david. you want? think again!

Sex with a muscled guy is still nothing compared to doing it with someone you actually have feelings with. Muscles aint anything, really. They look nice, but in actual practice, its not as nice as it seems. Thats why more and more people tend to go for average bodies or chubs, or well built but not muscular or lean/toned.

But that does not mean that there are gays with muscle fetishes who pursue only muscles even when they have it. Maybe its a pathological thing...hmm...

I hope this helps dispel the myth that muscled guys are fun to have sex with: they're not ^_^

*plays credits*

lundi 21 mars 2011


There are some very baffling relationships in this world, from the SM master to the slave, the master and the beast, gaybos (gay + lesbos) relationships (when 2 queens decide to spend the life together) and so on, but this has gotta take the cake: bromances.

Bromances are in short, boyfriends minus the sex. Or boyfriends for straight people. It involves 2 straight men being very close friends to the point where they touch each other's bodies and do anything and everything for each other, bring the tea to each other, horse around like lil boys, except for anything sexual. It's like a gay couple that dosent have sex or have any romantic interests. Oddly enough in a creepy way, one of them tends to be very dominant and the other quite submissive, just like in a romantic relationship.

There are 2 bromance couples in my office. It is a cute sight to behold indeed to see 2 grown, straight men fawn over each other as if they were primary school best pals. The more quiet and submissive one would be in all smiles when he's with the older, married guy, who has that sharp wit and manliness. They'd advice each other and talk about everything. The submissive guy would be taking the papers and bringing the coffee from the coffee bean counter for him. I'm often invited over as the 3rd wheel. It is just so adorable! Its like seeing tuls and bubu 20 years later!! Quel Amour! But they're both straight.

The other couple is in my department. It's Kumachan and the owl. When Kumachan goes overseas for work, the owl would be moody for days. Now not so much since ive been foxxxing around and joking about their closeness (which does get on my nerves :P). Because owl talks about sleeping over at kumachan's place, when kumachan is the kind of guy who thinks its awkward to walk in shopping malls with male friends. So it's just really odd for him to have owl that way. They talk to each other fondly and closely And till today, kumachan does not like to get too near me. Maybe he felt my foxxy (read: gay) vibes. So their closeness = bromance.

But you know what, i dont mind having a brofriend at all if i still cant get a bf. Its like having a bf only that he's straight and if i can hide my foxxy vibe enough as it dosent seem to exist in the gay world. or maybe it does, but never seen any. In any case its really fine as long as i get to bond with hoomans! Its actually the closest thing next to a boyfriend. Minus the swordfighting.

How many bromance couples have you seen? and would you mind having a totally platonic BF? (that you need to feign to be straight). Post your comments here. :P

dimanche 20 mars 2011

Blog the marketing tool

I got back on my feet everyone! after a week of re-adapting to the new changes and developments in my life. Was not easy but it took me a week or so.

During a meetup with a newfound friend over the weekend, together with tuls and Calvin, we discovered that this newfound friend's bf has a blog. And tuls was freaking out so hard coz he knew so many of them that this friend also knew. And then now there is a new trend lately where bloggers date each other.

I originally started this blog as a tool to help me heal by expressing myself, and placing all my unhappy stuffs out of my heart/mind into this lil website and then its kinda off my system and i feel better a lil. But ive gone past that stage recently and now its more or less time to move on from there and be a totally different person. There's a more outgoing me in the works beneath this nerdy personality and he needs come out with the help of a few friends. Think of it as a new me coming out of the old me with a few friends serving as the midwives, helping to introduce me and all to this whole new world of people. i want to be the social butterfly but i guess i have to start somewhere...hmmm

Should i delete this blog and then start a new one with my new personality? because after all, some of the posts here are really too depressing and dosent reflect who i want to be. Or should i continue with this one as my past is still me, just not reflecting the current me, and that it adds depth to my personality...? Please leave a comment on your opinion on this!

mardi 15 mars 2011

the big crash of 2011

its 2am, im awake, wide awake. i dont think i can sleep throughout the night. too many things have happened and now i think im on the edge again.

first of all, the date fizzled. the guy that i have been dating and going out with for 1.5 months has decided to move back to kuching all of a sudden, and his decision was done in a selfish way. that was what hurted the most. But maybe he deserves a rest. And i put on too much expectations. The first guy that i ever opened up to being the guy i'll be emotionally open to, broke my trust and expectations in him. he knowingly gave me those before deciding to move back, but yet still wants the friendship to remain. these days im telling myself to not be bitter. He cant decide and cant face his problems. I guess we were on a different wavelength after all. It is quite painful to have invested too much trust. At least i get the experience of dating.

That aside, i seem to be having a spiritual crisis. I realize ive been letting myself down all along and failing my own goals, the consoling myself and pulling out a "this never happened" trick. It's now coming down, crashing on me. Colleagues are noticing, people are noticing, and i want to do something about it but the shame of allowing this to happen, as well as allowing the other guy in only to realize he was just...undecided, has literally broke my mental barriers. I saw a couple having sex in the gym sauna, and i wanted to, for a few hours, just seek for sex and practice it. It was just random sex but they were so passionately in sex, that it made me realized how much i sucked at that department.

its now almost 4.30am and i still have not slept. I guess its just one of the battles i have to face. its gonna be okay after tomorrow.